this what it tells abt me ?

You Are Very Happy

Your life is totally together, and you enjoy every day. And you don't need a quiz to tell you that! You know how to find pleasure in the little things... And even when life isn't so great, you have a good sense of perspective. You Have Many Alpha Tendencies You're not a total alpha female, but you certainly know how to - and like to - get your way. You're forceful without being intimidating. You're confident without being vain. A perfect mix. You Have a Melancholic Temperament Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything. You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life. You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace. You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life. Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you. You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others. You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult. You've Changed 36% in 10 Years Ah, the past! You may not remember it well - because you're still living in it. While you've changed some, you may want to update your wardrobe, music collection and circle of friends. You Are 83% Tortured Genius You totally fit the profile of a tortured genius. You're uniquely brilliant - and completely misunderstood. Not like you really want anyone to understand you anyway. You're pretty happy being an island. Your Birthdate: February 23 People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong. You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1 You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month. What Your Handwriting Says About You You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress. You are somewhat outgoing, but you're not a natural extrovert. You think first before you act. You tend to be independent, rational, and logical. You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others. You need a lot of space in your life, and it's easy for you to feel stifled. You avoid commitment and responsibility whenever you can. You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart. You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous. You Are Pretty Happy Being Single You have a full, fun life. And you definitely don't need love to be content. Of course, being single can get you down a little. Especially when you've been single for a while. But you know how to be patient and wait for the right person. You're life is too good to settle for anything! You Are Ani Difranco! Honest, real, and well liked. You're not limited by any boundaries. "And you can call me crazy But I think you're as lazy as white paint on the wall" You Are Boyish Sexy You're the kind of girl who gets along with all the boys Whether it's holding your own in a game of touch football... Or kicking some major butt while playing Xbox. You hang with the guys easily, while still keeping your girly sexiness.

my way

lagu ni dah ada b4 aku wujud di dunia ni. lagu lama tapi best sgt. senikata lagu ni mmg best

(P. Anka, J. Revaux, G. Thibault, C. Frankois) [Recorded December 30, 1968, Hollywod]

And now, the end is here
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I'll say it clear
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain
I've lived a life that's full
I traveled each and ev'ry highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Regrets, I've had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course, each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall and did it my way

I've loved, I've laughed and cried
I've had my fill, my share of losing
And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say, not in a shy way,
"Oh, no, oh, no, not me, I did it my way"

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows and did it my way!

Yes, it was my way

apa pendapat anda

apa anda akan buat jika org komen yg anda :

1. so detail dalam satu2 pekerjaan hingga lost? (walhal kerana detail tu la kerja anda berjalan ikut platform yg betul, walaupun kadang2 terkucil miss the datelines. tapi bukanlah melibatkan masalah besar, just a minor issue)
2. straight to the point? (sebenarnya point tu lah yg factual tapi anda jadi unpopular kerana menyatakan kebenaran)
3. suka marah2 (walhal yg anda marah2 tu pasal org tak ikut arahan dgn betul)

pada penilaian dan pendapat aku :
1. detail sgt pun org tak appreciate especially utk mereka yg mementingkan quantity dr quality. yg penting bos senyap. tengok pada jenis pekerjaan jugalah. kena pandai2 menggunakannya.
2. tak salah straight to the point. cumanya budaya org kita (terutamanya melayu la) tak suka terima teguran = tak dapat terima hakikat kelemahan diri diperkatakan org. kena sampaikan teguran dgn cara yg paling lemah lembut. kena jaga hati takut terasa. jadinya utk menyesuaikan dgn keadaan semasa ni, eloklah kita berhemah sebelum membuka mulut. i cant stand this actually. real pretending
3. boleh aje nak marah2 atas kebodohan org lain coz pasal depa lah menyebabkan hidup/kerja kita susah atau tergendala tapi mcm biasalah org tak pandang pun punca buat kita marah2. yg depa nampak kita cepat hangin. itu 1st visual impression. apa2 pun EQ kena ada utk mengelakkan org kata kita sewel semacam.

apa2pun, memang sifat manusia mementingkan kepentingan peribadi (namun tidak dinafikan masih ada lagi org yg suci luhur). menidakkan mana yg betul dan membenarkan apa yg tidak betul. aku bukan ahli sejarah atau sasterawan atau budayawan. bg aku dlm era globalisasi ni kita kena suai padankan dgn cabaran hidup zaman ini. mana yg boleh diamalkan, amal. mana yg macam kureng dan tak berapa nak boleh pakai, tinggalkan aje. biarlah ia menjadi warisan. sekurangnya generasi akan dapat melihat betapa tamadun kita berubah mengikut masa. berubah ke arah kebaikanlah. selagi tidak menyalahi ajaran agama islam. hidup kita sepatutnya berpaksikan ajaran agama (yg bukan ditafsirkan ikut kepentingan sendiri, nowadays telah ada golongan yg mentafsir hadis dan quran ikut kepala sendiri). kita tidak boleh terikat pd stigma adab/pemikiran lama yg akhirnya tak membawa kita ke mana-mana.

you will be missed (u know who u r)

ni gambar rakan2 sepejabat aku. hari ni hari terakhir aku di KMS. aku sebenarnya sedih nak meninggalkan kawan2 especially f & zf. aku tau zf mungkin akan baca ni. tapi f, mungkin ya mungkin tidak. kita bertiga ni berkongsi rasa yg sama. pada pendapat aku la. tadi masa farewell party aku tak boleh nak menitiskan airmata. tapi bila balik rumah je aku rasa sedih sgt mengingatkan lusa bila aku pi kerja tempat baru tu aku tak akan dapat lihat muka2 yg begitu dekat dgn hati aku. aku ni memang emo gak kadang2 tu. aku just nak korang tau yg aku cherish sgt our friendship. we had gone thru thick & thin of life in KMS. thanks for being there for me. terimakasih kerana terima aku seadanya. zf, aku akan miss your company especially masa makan kat kantin. around pukul 11++ am and 3++pm. we used to hang around in the canteen during that time. dan yg paling besar dan aku takakan lupa sampai bila2, hang tolong aku bab2 PC stuff. ye la aku ni kureng sikit bab2 tu. and f, nasib baik audrey resign. klu tak aku tak berpeluang kenal rapat dgn hang. once audrey tender her resignation last year, aku join hang makan for the sake of aku kesian tengok hang tak dak kawan. tak rugi aku buat keputusan tu...knowing u is wonderful. so for both of u, stay the same and may allah blessed u always

one last word...KEEP IN TOUCH wherever you are

3 tentang aku

aku jenis yg bangun awal, walaupun tdo selewat manapun aku tetap akan bangun awal pg. jenis yg susah nak tidur bila matahari naik. kalau nak lena siang pun mungkin terlelap. paling lama pun 15 minit.

barang make up wajib n the only yg aku ada
- lip gloss (ada 2,3 jenis)
- sun block lotion
- loose powder.

masakan/makanan kegemaran
- udang, sotong masak asam (perut tak tahan pedas beb)
- char kuew tiau (true penangite)
- kari (mak aku punya jer, ceroi n banyak buh asam jawa)

warna kegemaran
- biru
- putih
- all pastel colors (walaupun ramai gak kata tak sesuai dgn aku)

program tv kegemaran
- agrotek tv1
- afc channel
- animal planet channel

waktu kegemaran
- selepas hujan (nyaman nyer)
- awal pagi b4 8am
- malam

tempat best aku pernah pergi dan masih teringat2
- masuk gua2 kat sarawak
- jungle trekking kat taman negara endau rompin
- pulau rawa

rentak lagu kegemaran
- segala jenis rock
- pop
- alternative

hobi masa lapang
- menjahit
- surf internet
- jogging awal pagi

kak nor, where are you?

tiba2 je pagi ni aku teringat kat sorang member lama sekolah menengah dulu. nama dia noriah. berkulit hitam manis, badan stocky sikit, pakai spec dan mempunyai senyuman yg manis sgt. suara dia memang sedap bila menyanyi. berasal dari terengganu tapi aku tak ingat area mana, rasanya kalau tak salah aku dari kawasan marang. seingat aku dia bersekolah rendah di KL. ayah dan mak dia kerja kat KL. aku panggil dia kak nor. dia senior aku. kami dok satu dorm. kak nor ni setahu aku mmg among top scorer dlm kelas. menjadi tempat rujukan bab2 pelajaran sekolah termasuklah aku yg selalu refer kat dia untuk subject english. dia jenis yg treat juniors dia macam kawan2 dia jek. takde la nak mengarah atau nak menokey kat geng2 aku masa mula2 masuk asrama. boleh ajer kitorang nyanyi kat pantry room sambil makan maggi mee n bersembang gelak2 kan cerita masing2. sifat dia memang tersendiri. jenis yg sempoi. bila sebut kak nor tak sah klu takde perkataan 'setan gondol' atau 'gonjeng'. dua perkataan ni selalu bermain kat mulut dia. selalu digunakannya kepada object yg dia tak suka. contohnya 'setan gondol betul la walkman ni'

lepas SPM dia, kami terus terpisah tanpa berita sampai sekarang. kat manalah agaknya kak nor sekarang?

coming around again - simon webbe

My sis bought me his CD last year. very relaxing and easy listening kind of music. this is one of my favorite song from his GRACE album. i find its lyric is inspiring.. well at least for myself. in our local music scene i like anuar zain. tapi lagu dia byk jiwang2, it wld be great if he can sing this kind of lyrics in his song. with his powerful voice and charisma that he has...pasti kabum bum punya la...opps melalut lagi :)

I been sitting in the darkness
But the sunlight’s creeping in
Now the ice is slowly melting
In my soul and in my skin
All the good times my friend
Are coming around again
Oh yeah

I been thinking reminiscing
Of better nights and better days
Hiding in a refuge
Of memories I've made
I got a feeling within
It’s coming around again

CHORUS
[It's coming around again]
We been so long waiting
For the all time high
We got a damn good reason
To put your troubles aside
And all your winter sorrows hang ‘em out to dry
Throw it away
Gotta throw it away
All the colorful days my friend
Are coming around again ......

jalan-jalan

it was hilarious n full of fun, our journey to taman rama2, pantai batu feringgi n fish world during school holiday recently. being an aunt who loves nature's life aku bawak la depa jalan2 pusing penang. maklumlah depa ni boleh kira mmg true uptown kids....alahai kesian betul, rama2 n kumbang kecik pun takut :-)

playful niece of mine

"It's first impressions that count"

1st May - Sunset in Pg

she who angers you conquers you

a friend's baby @ BJ

"just forget about all, this world is in peace"

friend in need

it was a heavy downpour that night and i was driving home alone from my usual weekend class on that Saturday. On the radio DJ has played the cover version song sung by used to be my fav. band, Boyzone. whoa i like the song very much. there is something about its lyrics. full of philosophies of a true friendship.

u needed me
i cried a tear, you wiped it dry
i was confused, u cleared my mind
i sold my soul, u bought it back for me
and held me up and give me dignity somehow u needed me

you gave me strength to stand alone again
to face the world out on my own again
you put me high upon a pedestal
so high until i could almost see eternity.....

talking about close friends, i have one by the name of ani who has known me for about 13 years. ironically we are 2 different persons all together. they way she thinks and mine is totally contradict. same goes to our dislikes and likes but yet can get along to each other quite well. especially for the last 13 years of my life. i must say here that i thank her so much for always being there for me..... adios :-)

grumbles

isnt it funny when a sr HR director of PCB manufacturer suddenly asked u to come out with proposal which was far beyond the nature of company's business. ...(disoriented)

isn't it funny when asked the sr HR director about why was that last year things were not being done as per policy requirement and yet the disciplinary action has not been taken against that fella...(crony)

isnt it funny when the boss can say thousand of bad words to you (provoking) and when responded by a single word of bad words, you been issued a show cause letter of why the disciplinary action shouldnt been taken against u....(double standard)

why boss failed to see who is actually run the show without politicking vs someone who is good in apple polishing but work wise was not really successful. yet he got promoted!! (lack in OB)

so to all the bosses who read this...pls turun padang and make ur own justification rather than bluntly accept the middlemen's words

and for me...it was so frustrating to know and see all these in front of my eyes

hitch hike

yesterday i saw these 2 girls were hitch hiking the passers by for a ride. i dont stop except was giving them a kind of look and start mumbling in my head 'beraninya depa ni, kang kena culik tak pasal je'. but frankly i did the same thing during that age. impatient to wait for the bus to come. i used to hitch hike during my schooling time. the port was at the bus stop in front of smss. next to istana lama kayu tanpa paku (this was what friends told me while we're chit chatting/waiting for the bus to come at the bus stop). i m not sure it is still there or not now. one day a car stopped by to give me and a friend ride to pasar payang. err i like to merayau kat pasar payang looking for tapai ubi and buah keranji packed in the small packages. satu seringgit. oops i m dragging things away. OK back to the story, what a coincident. that man was happened to be my school principal (en haris hamidon) younger brother. he and his wife were also on their way to pasar payang that saturday morning. while in his car odw to reach pasar, we were asked about our name, tingkatan berapa, siapa cikgu kelas n not forgetting advice to excel in the studies. see my points here how nice and caring people would be at that time, somewhere in the late 80s. well reading Bergen's blog make me reminisced about my old days in smss !! something that i haven't relate and think off for long time since i left school there.

mencelah sikit

mencelah sikit ya...jgn arr sama2 melayu pun nak pecah belah, tuduh menuduh, pulau memulau...BN, PAS, PKR semua parti org melayu yg beragama islam. kita jgn terpedaya atau terikut2 dgn orang politik ni. depa ni mmg la nak menang. mcm2 strategi la akan dilakukan utk mencapai matlamat mereka utk menang. adat org bertanding la sape yg tak nak menang. boleh aje mereka kuarkan segala macam bentuk menifesto, fatwa hanya utk nak menang.

berbeza pendapat mmglah lumrah. sedangkan lidah lagikan tergigit tp jgn sampai kita ni jd mcm org di iraq...syiah, sunni berperang, US and the other bangsa kafirun dok tepuk tangan nengok satu bangsa satu ugama yg bergaduh sesama sendiri. tak sedar yg puak kafirun ni sedang menyusup masuk nak berkuasa dan kaut segala jenis kekayaan atau peluang di atas sikap kita yg satu ni...(fanatik berpolitik)

as a layman...kita buka mata lihat disekeliling, lapangkan dada, guna minda utk berfikir secara helicopter view (scope yg luas termasuklah isu2 semasa meliputi faktor ekonomi dll didalam dan luar negara) then kita buatlah keputusan utk undi sapa yg kita rasa relevant utk perintah negara kita yg tercinta ini. adios....

have u ever smell the green?

i went to taman negara pulau pinang last weekend. using the balik pulau route to reach there was a fantastic experience. i wish i could snap more photos while ascending the bukit balik pulau. eventhough there are some road works there, the breath taking feeling never distorted. looking to the blue sky, blue greenish sea and all the lush green hills and durian orchards were lovely. being a nature lover myself, i am grateful that i had such experience to see them all and for the jungle trekking experience, pecah peluh beb..i walked along the trail. smelled the sea breeze and even can smell the leaves. it reminisced me with the trip to taman negara endau rompin long time ago.

cheerful faces - my sis n nephew n nieces

this pic was taken during my sis visit to bro's hse in shah alam.

i luv to see this cheerful faces in this picture. my bro is the only one married in the family and with these 4 adorable kids. just imagine where else mak long, mak uda, mak teh and pak su will turn to. seeing the smiles of adam, khairunnisa', yasmin, nabihah. (that is not including tok and tokwan lagi tu). we like to talk to them and sometimes have a chit chat over the phone and melayan apa yg patut. it is so soothing and refreshing being with the kids. so wonderful feeling. therefore i keep this pic on my handphone. each time i feel like tak de mood or slightly down...i like to scroll for all the pictures. the latest, this pic. hmm i believe, picture could bring happiness !

procrastinate no more

ha ha this word is more or less synonym with me. i have to admit that for instance i m yet to snap the pictures of my dad's stuff meant for so called car boot sales. i promised earlier to help him clearing off the house. tomorrow is a public holiday (thaipusam) so i have to make that photo things done..by hook or by crook tomorrow. i must i must i must do that

i did pack all my old PC things last sunday (after give a thought to do that so longgg ago) and gave it to one of my colleague (for his son actually) this morning. isn't it cool? it take times to transform myself. at least i have started to 'wake up' i have to praise myself for doing wonders last week. i managed to rush between 2 banks for me to do that early settlement thing..relieved! everything went well as per plan even with little evil way (it was almost 11am when i reached the office!..ampun ye bos, i hv to create a reason. purposely for not procrastinate doing that thing anymore)

look back

well it's been 16 days we are in the new year, 2008 and for muslims, after 6 days of our new year of 1429H....what have u got so far? i reckon in the beginning many ppl are busy with their new year resolution bla bla (me too..no exception) but tonite it popped up in my mind...hey why dun we look back throughout the whole year of 2007, the wrong things or the no-no things that we did. why dun we just sit and look back then plan for the corrective actions..not to repeat the wrong doings of 2007. hmm it's much easier i guess. simpler than make a new resolution. after all the target is to be a better person...at least not repeating the wrong things that we did in 2007 or past years are also towards to be a better person...isn't it?