Inikah akhirnya

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Setiap hari dialah orang pertama yang akan sampai dirumah sewa mereka itu. Rumah yang dihuni bersama empat orang lagi kawan-kawannya itu kelihatan sunyi sahaja. mereka yang lain masing-masing masih dalam perjalanan pulang ke rumah dari tempat kerja. "Hai berjasa juga motosikal buruk aku ini, terima kasihlah motor" Imah berkata seorang diri Motosikal itu dibeli hasil dari lebihan pinjaman pengajian yang dibuatnya ketika belajar di UiTM Arau dulu. Masih dia ingat, ayahnya bertanya berkali-kali, "betulkah kau nak beli motor terpakai ni?" "tak malukah nanti di tempat kerja kalau orang memandang?", Dia menjawap, "tak malulah ayah, malas nak berhutang bank, guna je apa yang ada" Pak Musa tersenyum sambil menganggukkan kepalanya, dia memang kenal sangat anak perempuannya yang seorang ini, bersederhana orangnya.

Kring, Kriniinnn, kriinnggg...telefon rumah berbunyi. "Eh siapa pula menelefon ini" getus Imah segera membuka pintu rumah sambil berjalan cepat meluru ke ruang tamu untuk menjawap panggilan telefon itu. Sebaik mendengar suara seorang lelaki dihujung talian, dia sudah tahu panggilan itu bukan untuknya "Hello, nak cakap dengan siapa ya?" "nak cakap dengan Ija", jawab lelaki itu. Imah membalas, "Ooo dia belum balik lagi, awak telefon malamlah, dia selalu sampai lewat"  Lelaki itu menjawap lagi, "err ok baik".

Malam itu seperti biasa selepas solat maghrib, dia memberitahu rakan sebiliknya Ija yang ada seorang lelaki menelefonnya petang tadi. Ija tersenyum riang mendengar berita itu, "Oooo itu Syam, dia telefon saya ya? "  Imah bertanya "siapakah dia itu, kekasihkah? Ija menjawap, "bukan kawan-kawan ja"

biru dan putih

terpesona sungguh aku dgn kepulan awan2 itu....sambil memandu klik klik klik :-)

gambar di ambil semasa dalam perjalanan nak ke padang besar...dikiri kanan jalan, pokok pokok tebu merimbun

mendung

pepatah kata mendung tak bererti hujan...kita merancang tuhan yg menentukan. perlukah kita merancang utk jangkamasa yg panjang?

awan gelap tu adalah pemandangan yg aku ambil dari atas bot berlepas dari pulau jerejak.

alkisahnya...

dulu masa kecik2, tiap kali balik kampung di sinilah tempat aku mandi laut dgn adik beradik, sepupu dan sesekali pakcik dan paksu aku join sekali...kami main bom bom n tarik2 kaki

sepi teluk ...

this picture was taken early last month. that was the place which used to be my playground. i remember gathering there for lunch together with tokwan, mak, ayah, cousins, uncles and unties for many many times in my life. be it for our usual gathering or on special day i.e. hariraya. there was a metal made swing near that pokok nangka where we used to lepak while chit chatting. it was there i used to dengar tokwan bercerita about his younger time experiences and etc. sigh, this is what modernization means...it takes away the place but the memories remain in my mind.

until we meet again

tanpa disedari setakat sekarang ni di dalam tahun 2009, tiap2 hujung bulan aku akan meraikan perpisahan kawan sekerja. 2 org di atas ni pernah menjadi kawan baik aku kat opis. gambar ni diambil hujung bulan january sempena meraikan Z (baju merah) yg berpindah tempat keje baru dan last week aku meraikan F pulak. tamat dah lah era kami makan n sembang bersama...masing2 membawa haluan sendiri dgn matlamat dan impian tersendiri. bagi aku, friend is forever ;p tp lain orang lain caranya...apa2 je la

kecil tp rumit

sukalah tengok dahan pokok yang berselirat dan berpintal-pintal ni, dahannya kecil tapi pintalannya macam rumit juga. gambar ini dirakam di R&R Bukit Gantang pada 9 Feb lepas. aku duduk kat pondok/wakaf kecil menunggu mak dan ayah habis solat sambil makan buah jambu dan pelam potong dikelilingi burung ciak rumah yang macam jinak jer hinggap ditepi-tepi meja aku ;p

syahdu

situasi ini dirakamkan semasa aku berada di subang pada 8 Feb yang lalu. terpaku dengan suasana langit dan awan diwaktu senja ditambah denagn cahaya lampu jalan dan beberapa bungalow dikawasan berbukit ini, terus aku capai handphone utk merakamkan suasana yang ala2 syahdu ini dan kerana camera aku 'canggih' sgt, inilah hasilnya :p

kuning

sekarang ni disebelah utara, musim kemarau. rumput semua menguning dan suasana menjadi berdebu semacam aje. panas. gambar ini diambil pada waktu tengahari Jumaat 14hb Feb yang lepas. seperti biasa dengan handphone aje. perhatikan rumput kecil sepanjang jalan ditepi tembok yang menguning vs pokok besar yang merimbun hijau. rumah berwarna hijau itu mencantikkan lagi situasi pemandangan.

PS : Teringat pulak lagu yellow, cold play :p

i love clouds

One of the things that i like to do during leisure time is watching the puffy clouds...here are the 2 photos taken by me using my handphone's camera during the sunset. same situasion in 2 different locations...one in Teluk Batik(TB), Perak and one in Port Dickson(PD), Negeri Sembilan.

Something for you to do.... which is PD & which is TB ?

transformation

i should write more here. after so long hibernated somewhere. this is my first entry after so long been MIA. lately in a year or two, i feel like i am in the middle of transformation from not so likely into malay and arts culture to someone who cares of this malay heritage. supposed i should do this long ago. imagine during last Christmas holiday i can sit back and watched the dancers for nearly an hour! just enjoying all the gestures and movements made by the dancers at melaka cultural village. very entertaining and livelier.

this what it tells abt me ?

You Are Very Happy

Your life is totally together, and you enjoy every day. And you don't need a quiz to tell you that! You know how to find pleasure in the little things... And even when life isn't so great, you have a good sense of perspective. You Have Many Alpha Tendencies You're not a total alpha female, but you certainly know how to - and like to - get your way. You're forceful without being intimidating. You're confident without being vain. A perfect mix. You Have a Melancholic Temperament Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything. You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life. You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace. You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life. Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you. You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others. You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult. You've Changed 36% in 10 Years Ah, the past! You may not remember it well - because you're still living in it. While you've changed some, you may want to update your wardrobe, music collection and circle of friends. You Are 83% Tortured Genius You totally fit the profile of a tortured genius. You're uniquely brilliant - and completely misunderstood. Not like you really want anyone to understand you anyway. You're pretty happy being an island. Your Birthdate: February 23 People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong. You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1 You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month. What Your Handwriting Says About You You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress. You are somewhat outgoing, but you're not a natural extrovert. You think first before you act. You tend to be independent, rational, and logical. You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others. You need a lot of space in your life, and it's easy for you to feel stifled. You avoid commitment and responsibility whenever you can. You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart. You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous. You Are Pretty Happy Being Single You have a full, fun life. And you definitely don't need love to be content. Of course, being single can get you down a little. Especially when you've been single for a while. But you know how to be patient and wait for the right person. You're life is too good to settle for anything! You Are Ani Difranco! Honest, real, and well liked. You're not limited by any boundaries. "And you can call me crazy But I think you're as lazy as white paint on the wall" You Are Boyish Sexy You're the kind of girl who gets along with all the boys Whether it's holding your own in a game of touch football... Or kicking some major butt while playing Xbox. You hang with the guys easily, while still keeping your girly sexiness.

my way

lagu ni dah ada b4 aku wujud di dunia ni. lagu lama tapi best sgt. senikata lagu ni mmg best

(P. Anka, J. Revaux, G. Thibault, C. Frankois) [Recorded December 30, 1968, Hollywod]

And now, the end is here
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I'll say it clear
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain
I've lived a life that's full
I traveled each and ev'ry highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Regrets, I've had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course, each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall and did it my way

I've loved, I've laughed and cried
I've had my fill, my share of losing
And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say, not in a shy way,
"Oh, no, oh, no, not me, I did it my way"

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows and did it my way!

Yes, it was my way

apa pendapat anda

apa anda akan buat jika org komen yg anda :

1. so detail dalam satu2 pekerjaan hingga lost? (walhal kerana detail tu la kerja anda berjalan ikut platform yg betul, walaupun kadang2 terkucil miss the datelines. tapi bukanlah melibatkan masalah besar, just a minor issue)
2. straight to the point? (sebenarnya point tu lah yg factual tapi anda jadi unpopular kerana menyatakan kebenaran)
3. suka marah2 (walhal yg anda marah2 tu pasal org tak ikut arahan dgn betul)

pada penilaian dan pendapat aku :
1. detail sgt pun org tak appreciate especially utk mereka yg mementingkan quantity dr quality. yg penting bos senyap. tengok pada jenis pekerjaan jugalah. kena pandai2 menggunakannya.
2. tak salah straight to the point. cumanya budaya org kita (terutamanya melayu la) tak suka terima teguran = tak dapat terima hakikat kelemahan diri diperkatakan org. kena sampaikan teguran dgn cara yg paling lemah lembut. kena jaga hati takut terasa. jadinya utk menyesuaikan dgn keadaan semasa ni, eloklah kita berhemah sebelum membuka mulut. i cant stand this actually. real pretending
3. boleh aje nak marah2 atas kebodohan org lain coz pasal depa lah menyebabkan hidup/kerja kita susah atau tergendala tapi mcm biasalah org tak pandang pun punca buat kita marah2. yg depa nampak kita cepat hangin. itu 1st visual impression. apa2 pun EQ kena ada utk mengelakkan org kata kita sewel semacam.

apa2pun, memang sifat manusia mementingkan kepentingan peribadi (namun tidak dinafikan masih ada lagi org yg suci luhur). menidakkan mana yg betul dan membenarkan apa yg tidak betul. aku bukan ahli sejarah atau sasterawan atau budayawan. bg aku dlm era globalisasi ni kita kena suai padankan dgn cabaran hidup zaman ini. mana yg boleh diamalkan, amal. mana yg macam kureng dan tak berapa nak boleh pakai, tinggalkan aje. biarlah ia menjadi warisan. sekurangnya generasi akan dapat melihat betapa tamadun kita berubah mengikut masa. berubah ke arah kebaikanlah. selagi tidak menyalahi ajaran agama islam. hidup kita sepatutnya berpaksikan ajaran agama (yg bukan ditafsirkan ikut kepentingan sendiri, nowadays telah ada golongan yg mentafsir hadis dan quran ikut kepala sendiri). kita tidak boleh terikat pd stigma adab/pemikiran lama yg akhirnya tak membawa kita ke mana-mana.

you will be missed (u know who u r)

ni gambar rakan2 sepejabat aku. hari ni hari terakhir aku di KMS. aku sebenarnya sedih nak meninggalkan kawan2 especially f & zf. aku tau zf mungkin akan baca ni. tapi f, mungkin ya mungkin tidak. kita bertiga ni berkongsi rasa yg sama. pada pendapat aku la. tadi masa farewell party aku tak boleh nak menitiskan airmata. tapi bila balik rumah je aku rasa sedih sgt mengingatkan lusa bila aku pi kerja tempat baru tu aku tak akan dapat lihat muka2 yg begitu dekat dgn hati aku. aku ni memang emo gak kadang2 tu. aku just nak korang tau yg aku cherish sgt our friendship. we had gone thru thick & thin of life in KMS. thanks for being there for me. terimakasih kerana terima aku seadanya. zf, aku akan miss your company especially masa makan kat kantin. around pukul 11++ am and 3++pm. we used to hang around in the canteen during that time. dan yg paling besar dan aku takakan lupa sampai bila2, hang tolong aku bab2 PC stuff. ye la aku ni kureng sikit bab2 tu. and f, nasib baik audrey resign. klu tak aku tak berpeluang kenal rapat dgn hang. once audrey tender her resignation last year, aku join hang makan for the sake of aku kesian tengok hang tak dak kawan. tak rugi aku buat keputusan tu...knowing u is wonderful. so for both of u, stay the same and may allah blessed u always

one last word...KEEP IN TOUCH wherever you are

3 tentang aku

aku jenis yg bangun awal, walaupun tdo selewat manapun aku tetap akan bangun awal pg. jenis yg susah nak tidur bila matahari naik. kalau nak lena siang pun mungkin terlelap. paling lama pun 15 minit.

barang make up wajib n the only yg aku ada
- lip gloss (ada 2,3 jenis)
- sun block lotion
- loose powder.

masakan/makanan kegemaran
- udang, sotong masak asam (perut tak tahan pedas beb)
- char kuew tiau (true penangite)
- kari (mak aku punya jer, ceroi n banyak buh asam jawa)

warna kegemaran
- biru
- putih
- all pastel colors (walaupun ramai gak kata tak sesuai dgn aku)

program tv kegemaran
- agrotek tv1
- afc channel
- animal planet channel

waktu kegemaran
- selepas hujan (nyaman nyer)
- awal pagi b4 8am
- malam

tempat best aku pernah pergi dan masih teringat2
- masuk gua2 kat sarawak
- jungle trekking kat taman negara endau rompin
- pulau rawa

rentak lagu kegemaran
- segala jenis rock
- pop
- alternative

hobi masa lapang
- menjahit
- surf internet
- jogging awal pagi

kak nor, where are you?

tiba2 je pagi ni aku teringat kat sorang member lama sekolah menengah dulu. nama dia noriah. berkulit hitam manis, badan stocky sikit, pakai spec dan mempunyai senyuman yg manis sgt. suara dia memang sedap bila menyanyi. berasal dari terengganu tapi aku tak ingat area mana, rasanya kalau tak salah aku dari kawasan marang. seingat aku dia bersekolah rendah di KL. ayah dan mak dia kerja kat KL. aku panggil dia kak nor. dia senior aku. kami dok satu dorm. kak nor ni setahu aku mmg among top scorer dlm kelas. menjadi tempat rujukan bab2 pelajaran sekolah termasuklah aku yg selalu refer kat dia untuk subject english. dia jenis yg treat juniors dia macam kawan2 dia jek. takde la nak mengarah atau nak menokey kat geng2 aku masa mula2 masuk asrama. boleh ajer kitorang nyanyi kat pantry room sambil makan maggi mee n bersembang gelak2 kan cerita masing2. sifat dia memang tersendiri. jenis yg sempoi. bila sebut kak nor tak sah klu takde perkataan 'setan gondol' atau 'gonjeng'. dua perkataan ni selalu bermain kat mulut dia. selalu digunakannya kepada object yg dia tak suka. contohnya 'setan gondol betul la walkman ni'

lepas SPM dia, kami terus terpisah tanpa berita sampai sekarang. kat manalah agaknya kak nor sekarang?

coming around again - simon webbe

My sis bought me his CD last year. very relaxing and easy listening kind of music. this is one of my favorite song from his GRACE album. i find its lyric is inspiring.. well at least for myself. in our local music scene i like anuar zain. tapi lagu dia byk jiwang2, it wld be great if he can sing this kind of lyrics in his song. with his powerful voice and charisma that he has...pasti kabum bum punya la...opps melalut lagi :)

I been sitting in the darkness
But the sunlight’s creeping in
Now the ice is slowly melting
In my soul and in my skin
All the good times my friend
Are coming around again
Oh yeah

I been thinking reminiscing
Of better nights and better days
Hiding in a refuge
Of memories I've made
I got a feeling within
It’s coming around again

CHORUS
[It's coming around again]
We been so long waiting
For the all time high
We got a damn good reason
To put your troubles aside
And all your winter sorrows hang ‘em out to dry
Throw it away
Gotta throw it away
All the colorful days my friend
Are coming around again ......

jalan-jalan

it was hilarious n full of fun, our journey to taman rama2, pantai batu feringgi n fish world during school holiday recently. being an aunt who loves nature's life aku bawak la depa jalan2 pusing penang. maklumlah depa ni boleh kira mmg true uptown kids....alahai kesian betul, rama2 n kumbang kecik pun takut :-)

playful niece of mine

"It's first impressions that count"